it would seem...

...that the "new thing" i was referring to in my january 20th post was a sense of social responsibility.

i've always had plenty of self-respect, but until recently, it doesn't feel like i took the time out to think about how my actions affected those around me (namely, those involved with me). in a few short months i've grown up a lot...tonin' it down and it feels damn good to do it.

i suppose being in a serious relationship most likely played a huge hand in all of this. meh. sure, i'm back on the field but, instead of playing the game, i'm writing the playbook.

instead of bringing this blog up-to-date, i'll just make a conscious effort to update more often.

'til next time.

STOP PICKING FIGHTS!

before you turn into your mother FATHER

this time, baby, i'll be bulletproof...

never have i ever: been a one night stand. i don't believe in them. it just sounds cheap. dirty. i am neither.

something unusual about this last guy, though. we spent the day together and...i don't know...maybe i'm being weird. he didn't feel at all distant while we were hanging out. i've developed a fucking awful habit of over-analyzing and doubting relationships during the latency period. meh, it's probably all in my head.

last night, i went a little batty on an ex-fuck buddy because he said, purely in jest, that he needs a new piece of ass now that i've moved away. don't know why i was so deeply affected by it, but i have to get out of this funk before it starts to manifest in whatever this new thing is.

note to self:

chill the fuck out!

take note

this is what i look like the morning after NOT boning...

this is what i look like any other morning...

i'm still having trouble swallowing after sunday night, but that's just fine. it's a great way to kickstart my annual new year's diet.

two's company...

...but the taste of three different men's saliva on your lips is whorish.

note to self: do not confuse senseless promiscuity with sexual liberation.

they say...

..."christmas comes but once a year".

i came four times. fancy that. good job, buddy.